Thursday, May 29, 2014

Trials and the Gospel

As a disclaimer to this post, I am still very happy. After reading it through, it seems like I am always sad or something. That is not true, I know I have a great life full of blessings, and I have a wonderful husband who makes me laugh and smile. I just felt like this is something I needed to write about. 
Lately I have been thinking about the gospel and trials. This year has possibly been one of the hardest years I've had in a while. Living in Utah is rough, and I miss Vegas. I have not made many friends lately and I feel disconnected with our current ward. I feel lonely. I just keep remembering "This too shall pass" and how this is a trial that I need right now. I don't exactly know why I need it yet, but I know I need to learn something from it.

The gospel is something that has also gotten me through this year. I really don't know who or where I would be without it. I have never struggled with my testimony. I have always wanted to go to church. It has been an essential part of my life and I would never change that. Knowing everything I know about the gospel helps me get through these rough days. The atonement is not just for when you sin, it is for when you feel sad, lonely, hurt, rejected, broken and more. Christ has suffered it all for US. It is incredible to me what he did, knowing that people would reject the gospel, knowing people would forget about His ultimate sacrifice. Because of the gospel, my path is clear. I know that these trails won't last, and they are happening for a reason. Without the gospel, I would have never realized my true potential as a wife, daughter, sister, student, teacher and a mother (even if I'm not one right now). I still make mistakes and I am definitely not perfect, but those are the reasons we have the gospel, to become perfect and have something to guide us through this earthly life.

Though we are incomplete, God loves us completely. Though we are imperfect, He loves us perfectly. Though we may feel lost and without compass, God’s love encompasses us completely… He Loves every one of us, even those who are flawed, rejected, awkward, sorrowful, or broken.
~Dieter F. Utchdorf