The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly...

The Good
 -I'm on spring break this week.
-It's getting darker later (One of the many reasons I love Utah, It's still light at 9 pm! (in the summer))
-I may have a hidden green thumb. I really enjoy gardening!
-Chauncey got a promotion and a raise! I'm so proud of him. He works extremely hard to support us and to make sure I don't have to work while going to school. 

The Bad
-I have a lot of homework and I haven't been able to properly enjoy my spring break.
-I've been more stressed about school than usual. I'm doing great (all A's and high B's) but I think taking 16 credits was a little much. However, at the same time I really enjoy being so busy. I just need to learn to manage my stress better.

The Ugly
- After almost 2 years of not having a cold sore, I finally got a huge one on my lip/chin. Because I didn't get one in so long, I didn't have any medicine for it. Luckily I'm seeing a doctor tomorrow to get some for the next time I have a cold sore. For those of you who are not cursed with cold sores, feel lucky. I forgot how painful they can be (and embarrassing! I feel like I can't do anything or go anywhere.) Like I said, I need to manage my stress better.

Anyway, that's all for me. I guess I should be looking on the bright side, The "good" list outnumbers the "bad" and the "ugly" lists combined.

Thank you!

The other day in one of my education classes, my wonderful professor asked us to thank any teacher(s) who might have made a difference in our lives. I have had many teachers who have made a difference in my life. They are the reason why I am becoming a teacher! My first grade teacher is always the first one that comes to mind when I think about past teachers. She always made me feel like I was important, and that I could make a difference. Her influence is the main drive for me becoming a teacher. My elementary P.E. teacher was also very important, though I might be biased since she's family. I'm sure that even if we weren't related, she would still be one of the best teachers I've ever had. They were two teachers who were both there for me and after all these years I still remember their influence. One last teacher I would like to mention is my high school math teacher. Many of you might know that I have always struggled with math but this teacher made math seem so easy. He was wonderful and treated all of his students equally. That was something I didn't see a lot of in high school, so many teachers played favorites. He didn't though, and I will always be grateful for his influence, he taught me so much more than just math. 

While I have had great teachers, I have also had terrible ones. I don't want to say anything bad about the terrible teachers, but I will say that I have learned a lot from both while reflecting on the different teachers I have had. I can't wait to become a teacher myself and (hopefully) influence my students' lives for the better! Thanks to all my teachers who have made a difference in my life :)

Institute

The last half of last year was really hard for me. Particularly after we moved. Don't get me wrong, I love our new apartment and I was happy to move...things were just different. I wasn't as happy as I was before. School was constantly bogging me down, and I didn't enjoy it like I usually do (I usually love school and doing homework. I love to stay busy).

At the start of the new year I decided I wanted to make some changes. I started writing in my journal more (I would rarely write in in, unless it was related to general conference or church). I started working out again. I also started going to institute again. Since leaving LDSBC, I stopped taking institute classes full time. I would go occasionally, and then I completely stopped going at all, blaming it on school or work. This year I realized I didn't really have any excuses to not go, especially since now that we live in Bountiful I don't go home during my 3 hour breaks at school. So before the semester even started I found a class and registered for it. The class is Pearl of Great Price (something I have never truly studied in depth before). The first day I was amazed at how differently I felt. I was not only happier, but I also felt lighter. I had been feeling burdened with different trials I had been going through. It was amazing to me how one single hour of being in a gospel infused setting could change so much. I am learning so much and my testimony is growing with each class. We discuss deep gospel doctrine (something I don't really get a lot of being in primary every Sunday). Our teacher is very knowledgeable in the gospel and often answers our questions with scripture references.

I find it so incredible how one small tweak in my life could make a huge change in my happiness. I now understand why President Monson urged college students to not only attend institute, but to make it a priority in our lives.

I would like to end by sharing one last thought that I had this Sunday. For the sacrament hymn we sang "Reverently and Meekly Now". I have never really paid much attention to the song, but as we were singing I realized how much I needed to hear the last few lines of the song:

I have loved thee as thy friend,

With a love that cannot end.

Be obedient, I implore,

Prayerful, watchful evermore,

And be constant unto me,

That thy Savior I may be.

 

I knew all along what was missing these last few months, but I was too lazy and sad to change anything.  From now on I will be more "constant" unto my Savior.

Come Thou Fount

One of my all time favorite songs has always been Come Thou Fount. It has always calmed me down when I have been upset, or lifted my spirits when I've been depressed/sad. This week my grandfather (on my mother's side) went into the hospital. He had a tear in his heart due to high blood pressure. Yesterday he had a chest x-ray that showed congestive heart failure. Today he is doing well, considering what he has been through.

This happened on December 30th. I found out on New Year's Eve and immediately traveled to Reno (where he was in the hospital) with my aunt, uncle and cousins. We just got back yesterday. Overall, this week has been extremely difficult. It was so hard seeing the man I've always known to be brave and strong in a hospital bed in the ICU.

One of the only things that got me through this week was singing in my head Come Thou Fount. It helped me remember to have faith that everything will work out, to know that everything happens for a reason and not to lose hope in my Heavenly Father's plan for us. I think it is very important in hard times to remember that the Atonement of our Lord and Savior is not just for when you sin. It is for when you feel pain, sorrow, affliction...He suffered for it all. Sometimes it is hard to remember that when I'm feeling sad, he felt that too. As the hymn I Stand All Amazed states:

I stand all amazed at the love Jesus offers me,

 Confused at the grace that so fully he proffers me.

 I tremble to know that for me he was crucified,

    That for me, a sinner, he suffered, he bled and died.

I truly do stand all amazed, It is incredible to me that Jesus Christ suffered for all of us, he felt our pain, sorrow, and suffered for our sins. 

I will end this blog post with my favorite verse in Come Thou Fount:

 O to grace how great a debtor daily I'm constrained to be!
Let thy goodness like a fetter, bind my wandering heart to thee
Prone to wander Lord I feel it, prone to leave the God I love
Here's my heart, O take and seal it, seal it for thy courts above

5 Things....

Hi everyone! I am really happy today because the semester is almost over. I only have a few tests and assignments left. It seems kind of crazy, but I'm also really excited about it. Mostly because being done with the semester means that I'm one step closer to being a student at the U. I'm taking 15 credits next semester (yikes! I haven't done that since my first semester of college), then hopefully I'll be at the U in the fall (I feel like I've said this before, but this time it's for real)! It finally feels like things are falling into place. Also, we are seeing Catching Fire tonight. So there's that too :)

On a different note, I noticed that everyone is posting these "things you might not know about me" on facebook. I didn't want to post it in a status, so I'll post it here. Here are 5 things that you might not know about me:

     1. I love to cook, but I don't like following recipes. I usually either make it up as I go or take ideas  from different recipes.

     2.  I know all of the words to "She Thinks My Tractor's Sexy" By Kenny Chesney, and I'm not even ashamed by it.

     3. I really like puns. Seriously, if you tell a joke that has anything to do with word play or puns I will laugh really hard. Even if it's stupid. Last night, I found this picture with a bunch of puns on it. I was laughing so hard I started to cry.

     4.  I'm still afraid of the dark, and when I'm sleeping I won't put my feet out off the side of the bed because I'm afraid something/someone will grab me...I guess I have a few irrational fears.

    5. When I'm giving someone bad news, (especially if I'm saying it to Chauncey) I have a really hard time keeping a straight face. It's mostly because I get really nervous and when I'm nervous I smile a lot.


So there you go, a couple of things you might not have known about me. Hopefully everyone has a really awesome Friday!

It's been a while...

     Oh hey. Check out the blog title, seriously. I haven't posted since Chauncey's birthday. We have been so busy moving in, getting settled, I have school, Chauncey works 12 hour days...yeah, things are busy. However, they are also pretty amazing. I'm so happy, things are really going great for us. So here's what is new for us...

     Chauncey and I both received new callings in our new ward. Chauncey is a teacher in the Elder's Quorum, and I am the secretary in the primary presidency. I can't be surprised that I'm in the primary presidency again, but I do feel inadequate sometimes. I feel too young to be in presidency callings. Yet then again, I feel blessed. I really love being in primary. I love being around the kids, they all have such sweet spirits and I love seeing them learn.

     As for school and work, it's pretty much the same. School is still really busy, and this semester is the hardest I've had in a while. This semester is also the most productive I've felt in a while. I'm actually taking classes towards my major, I feel like I'm really working towards something, instead of just taking general education classes and feeling stuck. It's a good feeling. Chauncey still works at L-3, despite the lay-off scares we've had. He switched departments and works really hard, every day is a 12 hour day for him. I'm so grateful that I have a husband that works so hard. It is such a blessing.

     So, other than school and work there isn't much going on. We are just living life, it's fun and busy. So...until next time! (I'll try to post more.)

Hubby's Birthday!

Today is Chauncey's birthday. So this post is dedicated to him.

Chauncey,

I just wanted to say how grateful I am for you, and for these past few years we have spent together. You are my best friend, study buddy, adventure partner, movie buddy, dance partner, and so much more. You are such an example to me in everything you do, you work hard, you are selfless and you always think of others before yourself. I don't know what I would do or where I would be if I didn't have you in my life. Thank you for always pushing me to be my best, and for loving me when I'm at my worst. I will always love you, and I can only hope I make you as happy as you make me.

I love you, thank you for everything.